Nightmare Anatomy
His red shirt resides underneath my bed with all the other random crap I toss under there that I don’t care about, but don’t want to get rid of. It’s silly and ridiculous to have kept anything from him, but I can’t bring myself to throw it away. Even though at night it creeps up my bed like nasty spiders that spin their disgusting web around me as I sleep and dream. It looks like I’m a human dream catcher, but my dreams run rapid with horrible plots that overcome my sweet dreams. I can never outrun the dreadfulness of the nightmares, nor can I outrun him in reality. Running is my worse enemy as I toss and turn in my web cocoon; always tripping and falling when I find that I’m nearing safety. It feels like one of those stupid scenes from a cheesy horror movie where the dumb girl trips and never gets up and just screams and screams. Unfortunately, I can feel how scared those stupid girls must feel and the distress they carry. Before my maker comes, I wake up; my body jerks up and alarmed from a self-induced heart attack. Little does my disconnected body know though, when I go out and see him with her, another one, and another, it feels like that scary, cheesy horror movie scene playing out in reality like it almost always does in my dreams-turned-nightmares. I’m walking to the edge of the busy river walk, I see him, in fear I turn to run, but I trip into the main street. Fear overtakes my body; limp, completely helpless, and waiting to die.
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